if_only_for_that_second psychobabe The choice was mine when I did what I did, Growing up so fast no longer a kid. Those endless nights just you and me, Nothing could top my high of what we had and could be. The look in your eyes soon seemed to fade away, Your smile went to a frown and I noticed it day by day. "You make this all go away" I would repeatedly swear, You gave me a look I soon could not bare. So that faitfull night sitting alone in my room, mind racing miles per second of what seemed to loom. "One..two..three..click" i watched the silver turn, Cold tears ran down my face but only seemed to burn. I can try to hide my pain I can try to lie and smile, But deep inside it hurts as deep as a fucking mile. Stareing out the window I see that night is here, No more people outside about to let go of all my fears. My heart was filled with desire whenever I saw you come by, I smiled and even glowed but now we both cannot lie. Do you still love me? Or is this not ment to be? Must i let go of this all? Or will you set me free? You said that nothing was wrong which i knew was not true, I tried to let you know and give you all the clues. But its all over now there is nothing left to say, I loved you with all I had every second, minute, hour day by day. My eyes are swollen tear staind face, What a fucking wreck no wonder you gave up the race. I give one last look the starry night sky, last and final breath Pull the trigger and die. But did you really know- that when you walked in you'd see, me alone sitting there, when you turned the fucking key? Did you think I would actually do it- all the times i joked around, When i said i would never, but then this is what you found. You gasped with surprise as you walked into the mess, I really wish I would have heard you finally confess. You wanted to scream no You wanted to tell me to stay, Didnt know it would end so soon on the final spot I lay. Before I could hear you scream the blow was sadly done, you wantched me fall, and the blood began to run. And just before I gave in- You saw me look at you, Before i pulled the trigger you already knew what i was gonna do. If only for that second, you had walked in to late- Who knew we would end like this, and undeserved forbidden fate. If you truly love someone- and you havnt let them know Dont give up on them, you just need to let them know. That deep down you love them you would do whatever it takes, to see them smile and laugh do what it takes to make. If only for that second, time can stand still- A moment lost in time, more left to give and fill. 030417 what's it to you? who go blather from