dusty_jasmine understory Spring inside and out... but out of sync with the birds and breeze, the ocean is still and my body doesn't remember will. Hanging on, fluttering and caught in the showers, reminiscing old flowers My girls underground, Jasmine and redwood surround, sentinel love and fern in the mist... sleeping on the ground, thoughtless, fear, felt like death Nothing is ever even half full, but I'm never that thirsty anyway I miss overflowing But I broke all those glasses and missed most of my classes for rails and kisses Now none of us misses Those times But we'd slip right back into If the rift offered us the door How to teach someone something I never learned? I was born and made this way Why are there so many mirrors? I asked as a child They just laughed, could not stop Sweetest giggles My mother happy I pass time with the bird and crackers Dancing in the smoke and mirrors She passes time with this guy, painting She says And I always imagined the Dali poster was hers She floated high in the clouds Or fumbled in the mud I just climbed out of reach, eating fruits in the trees Or tied myself to the underside of the bed... out of reach and pull... Kisses or bruises A life long trend And no one ever offered me the right balance One or the other But I learned from my mother So I smell like she did and tell myself I'm not As she was I'm more stable I need less I'm ok This boy in the park We share vapors and watch the daisies grow Leaning and I can smell his cherry tobacco And I remember the girl who always asked me to buy her cherry cigarettes Asked me for a kiss, then said I kissed like a man And when I kissed the next girl, my sweet lilac southern sun... I understood She kissed like a woman And as I reminisce The boy hands me a joint And says You were meant to be a muse And leaves me a quick kiss as he goes I lean on the tree and think Muses don't have homes And I'm always home sick Always sick with seeking I have a home But I forget I wanted the dusty jasmine most 180419 what's it to you? who go blather from