underground PeeT you are beautiful in your willingness to go unnoticed. 120423 ... amy in red This one is definitely not about me. If it's absolutely necessary I can allow, at most, a 5%, unnoticed rate. But then again it does depend what circle of people we are discussing.... Inescapable karma is what causes this; when I'm not confused and dismayed and baffled by it, I am giving a sincere effort to have it be good. Besides, sometimes I even really really like it. No this post is definitely not about me.... 120423 ... kerry i had a dream last night but i only remember the edges. trying to remember is like groping around a pitch black room, struggling to piece together what i feel touch hear, maybe i'm even underground my mother told me one morning she’d had a nightmare that she was trapped alone underground and she could hear us all above her (above her on the ground!) and she was calling out for help, but we didn’t hear her. at the time i thought "oh that sounds like a scary dream" and then forgot about it immediately. for the time being. i can grasp that now in a way i couldn't before. i was still be occasionally heartless and judgmental the way small children can be, just thought maybe she loved us a little too much for her own good, felt some pity for her, and simply wow such a bad dream but by now i've had them since, in sleep and in life, and i recognize that particular kind of terror and isolation, it is a fine blade it is like wire it is hissing and sizzling burning your palm tickling your toes pressing you down and dragging you back up it's a cave it's a tidal wave 210807 what's it to you? who go blather from