downward_spiral aM i DiStUrBeD? Cold, Grey, Dark. Times of living are changing, The sun of life drinking itself dry, The essence of the moon, waning. At last giving birth to yourself, Death to my being. Drink the last cup of youth, Sense of self distorts my seeing. Harvest the light with my hand, My tone drowned out by background noise. Clouds of past dreams fallen with rain, Shouts too loud, screams in my voice. Walking through streets at the fun-fair. Nothing more familiar, home. Call me mom, call me nothing. Nothing I can do but roam. Trying to find your real conception. Rhyming pattern, a b c b. Shaking the trees of my heart-ache, My pen writing words I cannot see. Winter is graven, scene from my mind. The sun of my essence, stolen from sight. Wind of my being, you hold in your hand, Candle of a life-time extinguished in spite. Crash and burn. Red, Dark. Watch me as I fall. The hatred as prudent as your tender eyes, Smolder with my life, loosing it all. 040919 ... suicidalchinadoll my love for him nothing eloquent to say about it. it simply was 040920 ... risk wheeeeee! depression, here i come. cycles of hate, acceptance, disquiet, hate. this can't be healthy. needs a hug. 041130 ... aM i DiStUrBeD? aww Everyone needs a hug at some time *gives risk a hug* 041130 ... anomalous "...The Downward Spiral happens whenever feeling bad puts a patient in a situation that makes them feel worse. This is similar to the yo-yo, but in the downward spriral, people don't have time to recover on bad days. Here are some examples: * A person works very hard one day at work. This makes them feel worse, which leads to them not working as effectively. In order to catch up, they work harder, which leads to them feeling worse... * A person loses their appetite when they don't sleep well because they're so tired, they don't realize they're hungry. Then, they don't sleep well at night because they wake up very hungry... * A person does not feel well, and therefore cancels a date with a friend. This leads to them feeling depressed and sleeping poorly, which leads to them cancelling more dates..." 050426 what's it to you? who go blather from