dammitjanet frAnk somehow i think we're in for a wild ride. write to us darling. we love you already. 030110 ... belly fire She sits by the pool. Isolates herself. Looks to the Caribbean. Searching for the words she lost. She's angry. In a poetic kind of way. 030110 ... belly fire The real difference between us is that while you choose to remember the good things I'm always digesting the bad. You're a destined forgiver and they'll always love you for that. It doesn't matter if you believe your heart is black or filled with doubt because they will remember the kindness in your eyes. How could they ever confuse us? Me who can hate long after I've forgotten the purpose; draw conflict like a magnet. You who can laugh with fury in your heart; close your mouth to smile at pain. They will remember me too, yes. But with spiteful tongues. But you, my best friend, they will sing about. 030118 ... belly fire she has a fan club 030226 ... belly fire you know, I would be flattered to be mistaken for you any day too... in case you were wondering. 030228 ... belly fire it's you I don't deserve 030520 ... . Thought you might appreciate: http://blather.newdream.net/d/dangit_jangit.html 040309 ... . Thought you might appreciate: http://blather.newdream.net/d/dangit_jangit.html 040309 ... . Thought you might appreciate: http://blather.newdream.net/d/dangit_jangit.html 040309 ... . Thought you might appreciate: http://blather.newdream.net/d/dangit_jangit.html 040309 ... oops I guess I thought you'd appreciate it a lot. 040309 ... DammitJanet why exactly would i appreciate that? 040309 ... . because its a play on your name ... I guess you didn't like it :( 040309 ... DammitJanet Oh. I didn't see the connection, other than yes, it is a play on my name, but i thought there was a reason behind it. I suppose i was looking into it futher than i should have. 040309 ... crOwl (frAnk) welcome back. it's been quite a while since you wrote at red. it's good to hear from you. how have you been? what have you been up to? 060330 ... DammitJanet hey frank i've been doing alright i suppose, despite my world getting turned upside down. atleast there's been good littered amoungst the bad, making it a little easier to handle. i've still visited once in a while without leaving anything behind, afraid my words would be read and twisted by one fellow onlooker. i shouldn't worry anymore though, since everything's out in the open, and there's nothing new in thoughts or discussions that hasn't already been said. coming back here though is quite sad.... it reminds me of a time where i was happy even though most of my words back then were in anger. bellyfire and i were 2 peas in a pod then. what are we now? likely nothing. our lives together are still here, mixed and jumbled in all the red. i miss it. i've missed you, especially. i'll try to come back more often, as a therapy from my still painful seperation :) 060331 what's it to you? who go blather from