gatekeeper u24 there's a part of my brain that keeps me sane. I wish it wouldn't. Like for years how I wished I could cry but I couldn't. I couldn't cry for years and years and years no matter how sad. Even now I can't release those gushing animal sobs any more. In a similar way, something holds me back from just uprooting myself and I just wish I could. I know why it's there, to keep me safe. But I don't want to be safe any more. I've been safe these last 20 years, I want to feel something. 200624 what's it to you? who go blather from