anhedonia paradive i'm just plaing emotional blackjack 010917 ... paradive i'm just playing emotional blackjack 010917 ... unhinged i always lose at that game 010917 ... kss you stand and smile and I’ve already accepted your resignation before you even say hello stuck in a perpetual state of compensation always building, working, planning. never feeling like I’ve arrived. when can I relax? faith is a mental state designed for counteracting contradictory signs filling the empty a mental distraction from the lacking finally when the lights turn off it’s cold and dark and quiet and the echos of something else fade away 021112 what's it to you? who go blather from