waking_thought native persimmon Urban sun streaming through my blinds What would grow in my one western_window ? 090304 ... unhinged my chest hurts. i don't want to get up. i don't want to go to work. 090304 ... native persimmon P(X=k)= (n\k)p^k(1-p)^(n-k) where (n\k) = (n!)/(k!(n-k)!) and P = probability that I pass, given p=0.70 and n=12, then k=? 090311 ... unhinged today is going to suck. i hope she's on my side. 090311 ... Fido The light is cruel as time is kind To he who walks the plain of time A’thirsting for his nobler mind 090311 ... birdmad slight dizzy spell from standing up from the bed too soon, dress, feed the cats, clean the litterboxes wash hands pack lunch drink a soda while waiting for the bus, get on when it comes, try not to retch from the cloying smell of the half-finished grape cigar in someone's pocket a few seats away. get to office, prepare mind for mind-numbing customers 090311 ... unhinged but she wasn't just like i knew she wouldn't be 090311 ... unhinged today is going to be another miserable day of pretending 090319 ... native persimmon Don't forget the sarees, don't forget the sarees. . . 090320 ... unhinged today is going to be another lonely boring saturday 090321 ... native persimmon Woken by an unfamiliar sound A muffled cell phone next door I thought but then I realize it's a bird, near my window, in my city, at the beginning of spring. It's time for me to take a break from this network of streets and bustling brunch joints and sales and academia and blocked sunlight I have a few days coming to me in a sprawling, open kitchen with fresh and bright knocking on the broad French doors looking out onto our dewy, misty field untraversed for some time now 090322 ... native persimmon walking together on our paths my father falls into a hole of what he loves to talk about most stool he crawls out slimy and smiley he says "and it's payed the bills, too!" it's what he does ew Could this be what links us? It is becoming my expertise, too sanitation, hygiene poo Slightly different careers similar focus, Do I want it? Or just making him proud? 090406 ... eatingstars my alarm already?? 090406 ... unhinged who is that damn asshole out there and what the fuck are they pounding on? (ever since the new management company took over this building, i have been rudely awakened too many times to count. us second shift people get screwed. is it really too much to ask for you to shut the fuck up til 11am? especially on a saturday? balls) 090406 ... unhinged what the fuck is that beeping? what the fuck was that dream about? 090430 what's it to you? who go blather from