two_eyes flux i came up with the name almost immediately, though i've never used it outloud. it sounded almost derogatory, which is a pity. i keep finding new meanings in it the more i look. heh hm. it's very fitting, with each new meaning moreso. 060102 ... flux i've told you before, don't worry about me. i'll be fine. you're easy to read, i saw this coming for a while now. yes, it hurts, but i'll be ok. i'm going to distract myself by going to socal to look at a farm i'm thinking of buying. 060102 ... crOwl buy the farm. robin_hill is one of the best things we have lived to enjoy. 060102 ... flux inspire me to spontaneous acts of beauty. i once brought you a poor decapitated rose. there could have been more incredible, elaborate things.. 060124 ... flux when i told andrei and adrienne that you'd broken it off with me, andrei started to cry. shouted "no!?!" and threw something at me. shit, i've never seen that before. and i hadn't even had a chance to cry yet. 060124 ... flux if i could give you my confidence, i would. but it took me a long, long time, and a lot of bad memories to get it. 060124 ... flux i feel like i should record all the little memories now before they fade and i forgot they were ever there. 060127 ... flux "you're smart, and you're sexy, and if you only went after what you wanted, you'd be dangerous." "is that a compliment? thank you?" ... i gave you a present a couple of days later. the_place_of_dead_roads, a mix tape of the_cramps, a pack of cloves. it was a little game on what i'd said. object pairing. smart, sexy, and the roots of desire... ... cloves. cloves bring back.. all sorts of memories. they were very appropriate. 060131 what's it to you? who go blather from