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belly fire When I think of you I always end up reminding myself how I don't miss you. As true as it is to me now, as true as I believe it to be anyway, it's not you I miss...it's all the time you gave me that I carry around. I won't say that in spite of these things I should hate you for the person you turned out to be but I won't say I should love you because of them either. Still, it's these things that will keep me thinking of you.
I miss our banter.
I miss the way your voice would get soft when you had something important to say.
I miss those in-between moments you stole with me and held me so gently but as though you'd never let me go.
I miss your smell.
I miss the whispers in my ear.
I miss the soft tugs you gave my lips with your teeth.
I miss knowing what you were thinking.
I miss the way you finished my sentences...the way you began them.
I miss the way you held my hand.
I miss how you'd turn and kiss my hair out of the blue.
I miss how you could look right into my eyes and not have to turn them away.
I miss your breath on my neck.
I miss the way you held my gaze, my attention and my secrets.
I miss how you stole my apprehension.
I miss how warm your body felt against mine.
I miss that you knew right where to touch me.
I miss how I was never afraid of you.
I miss that being next to you felt as familiar as an old friend...but as exciting as a new adventure.
I miss never feeling lonely.
I miss closing and opening my eyes to you.
I miss that you were never afraid to try new things.
I miss that your friends were my friends.
I miss the moments we made together that remain only ours.
I miss how good a fighter you were.
I love that you were my friend first...that you were my lover last.
I miss that you fulfilled me and made me feel loved...but you let me keep that part of myself.
I love that you never bragged to him...that I never bragged to her.
I love that you were the first I trusted, but that you never had me at all.
I miss the way you always knew where I was...and how you searched when you didn't.
I miss how you trusted me alone with him.
I miss how your issues were just as hilarious as mine.
I miss learning something new about you everyday.
I miss how you scared me...in a wonderful way.
I miss the feeling of being full of you, even in my dreams.
I miss how you could always surprise me.
I miss how you made me feel like a girl for the first time in my life...and I loved it.
I miss how easily you made me laugh.
I loved that my family loved you.
I almost loved you.
I miss that moment,
I miss that hug,
I miss our summer,
but I don't miss you.
It's good that I could walk away, even with a broken heart.
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