my_emotions_in_a_journal foreverfree so I keep random pieces in this journal that lolo gave to me for my birthday. So far, I have a few entries here and there. I have never been good at keeping dated writings, or thoughts. I tend to get rid of them or forget about them as they come. I have this problem with keeping my work, but I was going through a lot of my old stuff that I have kept throughout the time, and some of it seems pretty good to me. I have decided to invest in a laptop. I figure, this would be the best way to start writing that book that I have failed to do so in the past. For now, the little journal I hold will be my thought keeper. I sometimes drive around in my car and I think about things that have happened, or things that are going to happen, and I play with them in my mind. Sometimes, I wonder what would have happened had I reacted in such a way, or how a certain person would have reacted if I had done things differently. If its in the future, I play out multiple possibilities, but people are interesting and unpredictable creatures. The moment can always change things. You could tell someone something one day and if you had waited and told them the next day, the reaction could be different, or the same. Who knows?? For that same reason, I need substance within myself. The emotions that go into this journal may, or may not, go on here. But if it does, it will not be edited and it will not be in any specific pattern. Happy Reading! 050506 ... foreverfree new beginnings there is this new drive inside of me. it was created out of a dream. it was keyed to a certain event. it is called new beginnings. it didn't work out the way I thought it would. actually, it completely backfired on me, but that should have been expected, because dreams aren't always meant to come true. I know better. but that doesn't mean that I didn't hope, because without hope, without risk, without that first step and the belief in the path you are taking, dreams could never come true. new beginnings gave me a different perspective on life, and how I need to move on. new beginnings is new energy, but I have yet to find a way to plant it on fertile soil, and let it grow to its full pootential, so that I may harvest it and use its qualities. . . 050514 what's it to you? who go blather from