what_if moonshine This years Burning Man became my Milk Man, the Port-O-Potties became transporters, and my lip gloss watch became my very own portable petri dish. Yesterday I was in San Francisco staring dwon the from the 52end floor of the Carnelian room, looking down on all the tiny earthbound stars. Making faces and drinking orange juice. Cities can be so rotten and beautiful... When I was in the bus terminal, reading the wallls, randomly I imagined I was meeting you there. One of those "what if" situations. You have beautiful eyes. And today I ran threw the sprinklers and let the water run down my face and jeans. The neighbors have never seen me. I've been dancing like a mad man lately, and sometimes when know one is home I dance on the coffee table. I've taken up hula hooping. Maybe there were only moments between us, but I miss you. 010909 ... auburn in marrying my best friend, I lose my soul mate. 090521 ... unhinged 'maybe there were only moments between us, but i miss you' *sigh* the weight of my life, alone, is beginning to become oppressive. what_if the phone call i have to make today costs me my job? i don't even know what to say to these people. they have made my life a living hell for three months. i just want it to end. (but not my job with it) 090521 ... unhinged this is what i've been waiting for? 090611 ... cooper rasha what if i was just some little mute dude looking confusedly around the room in the middle of china somewhere? 130117 ... nr it is a constant struggle to remove this phrase from my vocabulary and thought processes 160520 ... unhinged we started treating each_other like human beings again? 160520 ... raze i'm only a character in someone else's dream? what happens when they wake up? 230714 what's it to you? who go blather from