unreciprocated nr maybe. or maybe not. it's probably all moot anyway. i'm too old for this shit. 141208 ... nr it was reciprocated after all, but this has maybe since changed. or maybe it's changed on both sides, making it not unreciprocated at all. i feel a shift. but it goes against previous odds. but it's hard not to trust my intuition. 141218 ... unhinged maybe this is the real reason i dont stay friends after a breakup. ive lived too much of my life waiting for others to notice my feelings. if i share my feelings and you reject them, i dont see where a friendship comes from that. 141218 ... the strengthy rot card stings alone this is is not not a phil collins song. 141219 ... unhinged unreciprocated is alone oh the quiet understated beauty of blather 150326 ... unhinged *sigh* i had the jolting thought recently that you really didnt care. that is reductive but at this point it feels alarmingly true 151030 ... epitome of incomprehensibility 1 is alone because its reciprocal is 1. Algebra 1 for the lonely. 151111 ... e_o_i OK, context: I wrote a song last year (2015) about a high-school crush, part of a sort of nostalgic series, but the first draft didn't feel very personal. I wondered what was wrong. Thought process: okay, I liked a girl who had straight black hair and was most probably straight herself. Sad, but not exciting or original. What else did I like in high school? Corny math jokes! So I added corny math jokes like the one above and it felt more genuine. Even if it doesn't make much sense now, well: you can't swing both ways on the nostalgia train without a mixed metaphor where the vehicles ride the tenor on the wrong side of the tracks. Home on the domain and range! 160108 ... e_o_i Now I need a country song with math jokes. Will a country song with math jokes love me back? 160108 ... unhinged respect at work at home it takes a lot of effort to respect people that don't return the favor. a lot of effort that is becoming harder and harder to expend without a little in return. the windstorms come occasionally and some of the trees finally snap from the added pressure. sometimes they survive the unavoidable pruning from outside forces. sometimes they do not. others have to come and pick up the pieces. 160109 what's it to you? who go blather from