unnamed
raze
he
named
his
cat
stupid
.
i
don't
know
who
does
a
thing
like
that
.
a
piano
teacher
who
calls
you
his
friend
and
then
jumps
ship
as
soon
as
your
dad
stops
paying
him
to
teach
you
things
your
brain
refuses
to
learn
,
i
guess
.
that's
what
he
was
,
anyway
.
the
best
lesson
i
ever
had
was
probably
the
one
i
played
the
worst
at
.
he
was
teaching
out
of
his
house
by
then
.
not
because
he
couldn't
afford
office
space
.
he
just
didn't
want
to
pay
for
it
anymore
.
i
sat
in
the
living
room
and
waited
for
him
to
finish
up
with
the
student
before
me
.
she
had
curly
red
hair
.
she
was
a
year
or
two
younger
than
i
was
.
that's
all
i
ever
knew
about
her
.
he
asked
if
i
wanted
some
green
tea
.
i
said
sure
.
he
made
me
a
mug
.
it
didn't
look
green
to
me
.
it
didn't
taste
like
anything
at
all
.
i
played
with
his
cat
,
and
he
ran
through
a
song
with
the
girl
upstairs
.
i'm
not
sure
if
it
was
meant
for
four
hands
,
but
they
played
it
that
way
.
their
fingers
traced
out
the
same
melody
an
octave
apart
.
there
was
something
innocent
in
those
notes
.
i
was
wearing
a
black
corduroy
shirt
i
don't
have
anymore
.
i
smelled
like
something
pure
.
when
it
was
my
turn
to
sit
on
the
piano
bench
and
embarrass
myself
,
i
asked
him
the
name
of
the
song
i'd
been
listening
to
on
a
loop
for
an
hour
while
i
shadowboxed
with
stupid
.
he
wouldn't
tell
me
.
he
didn't
think
it
was
anything
worth
knowing
.
twenty
-three
years
later
,
i
still
remember
every
bit
of
it
.
i
could
play
it
for
you
right
now
.
i
bet
he
doesn't
even
remember
my
face
.
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...
nr
sometimes
you
don't
know
what
to
call
a
feeling
.
it
might
be
sadness
or
it
might
be
worry
or
it
might
be
annoyance
or
it
might
be
anxiety
or
it
my
be
fear
or
it
might
be
a
mix
of
all
those
but
not
much
of
them
.
maybe
when
you
feel
you
shouldn't
be
feeling
a
feeling
,
you
have
more
trouble
naming
it
.
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typos
suuuuuuuuuuuck
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feeling
of
longing
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