ruthless flux a couple nights ago. sleeping on an old friend's boyfriend's couch in dc, curled up next to the dog. dream: i only remember what woke me up. i was running, either chasing something, or trying to get somewhere. i needed to jump across some sort of divide. a very old friend showed up, trying to stop me. a girl i went to jew_school with from kindergarten through eight grade, always quiet and reserved, small and mousy. i've really got no strong memories of her, despite knowing her for so long. we never talked after eight grade, she lived in a different town and went to a different high school, but others i knew kept more in contact with her. during sophomore year of college, in santa_barbara, some crazed guy ran her and four others over in his car, and got out and screamed "i am the angel of death!". she and three others died, and her older brother had his legs crushed and his brain damaged. the incident seems to even be on wikipedia now: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2001_Isla_Vista_killings i refused to go to the funeral; i was at a point where i considered the idea of mourning death offensive, and didn't understand that being there wasn't just about me. i've almost never thought about her since, except when compiling lists of dead friends. but here she was in my dream, keeping me from getting somewhere i felt i needed to be. i got angry, both that she was dead, and that she was in my way, and tried to punch her. instead, my physical body reacted, and i punched the poor dog i was sleeping next to in the head, hard enough to break the skin on my knuckles. the dog got up very confusedly, wandered upstairs for a moment, and then came back down and fell asleep next to me again, i assume not understanding that i was the one that hit him. i've had a few other dreams that resulted in me lashing out in a punch, but this one especially gives me something to think about. 140903 ... srealista ah shit :( one week before seattle earthquake and my wandering around for a couple of days. so m, this is rough, but so is the astrological event chart. Eris and Pholus are indicated. and Pluto of course. the second Isla Vista incident hit me hard. i really don't want people like that taking out their frustrations on innocents. of course! at any rate, I sensed the second Isla Vista coming and posted some Vines about it in December. i was thinking of earthquakes and cursed land and the Mexican American War. RIP to your friend. (Sometimes i have to say screw the internet it's not worth it. or aliens. or the ancestors and their curses. or the irresistable force. ) blech. poor dog 140904 what's it to you? who go blather from