nowadays queenie i've seen fright, and not being able to distance myself, it has debilitated me. i'm now response-able for producing something different. and i'm extraordinarily slow. the best moments are quiet -- moving and peaceful-- however, we can still trumpet those Hello's., maybe the grail is picking and choosing 020501 ... birdmad Morning seems strange - almost out of place Searched hard for you and your special ways These days - these days Spent all my time - learnt a killer's art Took threats and abuse till I'd learnt the part Can you stay for these days? These days - these days Used outward deception to get away Broken heart romance to make it pay These days - these days We'll drift through it all - it's the modern age Take care of it all now these debts are paid Can you stay for these days? (1979, Ian Curtis - joy division) 020501 ... amy i suffer with more clarity and less confusion than i used to, but these feelings are also matched by my general disbelief at the good things that happen to me and for me. it depends on which way you look at it (especially today): sometimes life is too good and i'm too aligned, and my raw response is "suffering", if you can call it that. the mandate is still out there for improvement, and what else is there to do but suffer? in that case maybe i've made up this suffering by disbelieving. it's way, way easier to just pretend like i'm in the dark, and be a little confused about it. it's like being on rung 10 and not rung 11. rough, i know. 020620 ... amy nothing less than the revolution can be our subject... however long it may take. it's our project, where criticisms from every corner are valid as long as they're honest. 030114 ... megan things don't always work out like we want them to. it used to be so perfect in our own little world, holding each other. now reality has stepped over our doorframe, and nothing we can do can turn her away. 030114 what's it to you? who go blather from