new_brain amy the benefits to havoc and loss-learning, the emotions were the best of the one particular something you could muster. now they are telling me that i'm done. good sunset today. good walk in the forest preserve, where the leaveless oaks displayed their character. 031231 ... shadow le crowl leaveless oaks, oh amy. i walk amongst them in the woods near robin hill and together they speak of antiquity, of patience, of the gathering of inner strength. i cannot ever say that i am done, even though it is what i likewise desire. to be done is to have lived the gauntlet of emotion which i have only perhaps met halfway. havoc is my disguise and the loss is not learning, it is memory. happy new year to you sweet girl. 031231 ... amy and happy new year to you, too, wonderman of creation. for me, the loss-learning is something about how everything possessed can and will be lost. we gain such precious beauties to have them for only a prescribed amount of time. on the one hand, it is tragic. and on the other, the gain-and-loss is an experience showing us that there are certain things, like love, peace, and growth, that we must preserve. because we must be here to make the experience "worth it". nothing goes to waste. 040101 ... shadow le crowl how can i tell you i agree? i do. 040101 ... new time 070808 ... . if it is new time then make the clocks go backwards, we will have to learn a new way to read the time. 070808 ... raze sometimes i think i could use one of these. but if i surrendered all the pictures and soundbites and battered reels of film that have made me who i am, what would i build myself back up to be? 240730 what's it to you? who go blather from