messy kerry last night sat up late bent over a card i was making for his birthday, collaged and painted with watercolors, acupuncture fliers and old photographs and cut-out stars. slept in the middle of my double bed for the first time ever, usually i am huddled into a ball and teetering off the left side, but i was spread out all over the place and comfortable, 2 A.M. just dozing off after reading through old journal entries which is something i do whenever i am procrastinating. i'm good at procrastinating, the results of which are littered all over my room, new teeny candles on the stereo that i bought when i went to the health food store with audrey in search of tai tea, which we didn't find, and books i've leafed through and thrown off to the side, and in the little ripped white bathroom rug at the foot of my bed there are several huge piles of change, $10 in coins to each pile, i think there are six. my unpacked bags from last week are still on the floor by my dresser which is covered in dust, half-capped lipstick tubes, and dejected jewelry. curtains remained closed that day due to pure laziness, in a way maybe thats a good thing, my dried flowers will fade slower. this morning i walked over to jackie's in the sweltering heat and ate some pancakes [made from scratch] with jackie, her sister, and her sister's boyfriend who is visiting from boston. then we watched Igby_Goes_Down which i bought for a mere $7 earlier this week, and i ate an ice cube, and my mother picked me up on the way back from kroger because it was so hot and i didn't want to walk home. i dont know what makes me think any of this is interesting to anybody. 030611 ... Anna_Began Don't underestimate yourself, kiddo. The first half was one of my favorites of yours so far. 030611 ... kerry thanks 030613 ... inconnue sometimes i think i know i don't know it's better not to say anything to anyone and so i think about silence 040312 ... silentbob this is beginning to be serious 040313 what's it to you? who go blather from