be_normal slothisily I'm sad I don't know why I'm sad again I don't like being sad why am I sad? I don't like this feeling I don't like it I don't like it it won't go away the dark is creeping up and I try to push it away I try I try but it's surrounding me like the night I don't like this feeling I thought it was gone what am I going to do? I don't know what's wrong with me I don't know sometimes I just want to be normal. I am not normal, I have never been normal. I can't not think I can't do it I have to think just like I have to breathe but thinking makes me not want to breathe I need to run I need to run and run and get away I don't even know what I'm running from damn it I don't even like running. I'm sad and I can't be like this again I don't know how much more I can take I don't like being sad but I don't even know what would make me happy oh I think I need help I just want to be normal. 041111 ... skyburst i want to dot this just to say i read this and i hope you are feeling better 041112 ... . .) 041112 ... slothisily i am not sad today i am an apple. (thanks for the dot you burst of sky 041112 ... eat id I keep telling myself to do this. Over and over. It's as though I can hear myself talking too much, saying too much, revealing too much before I even open my mouth. Be fucking normal. In other words, be QUIET. 060301 ... unhinged when i hear that same voice in my head in a crowd of people i also often find myself quiet afraid if i might voice my unnormal thoughts i might be annoying or scary to those around me be normal blend in shut up 060301 ... raze they used to say this all the time. "be yourself." followed by: "just be normal." never understanding or caring about the inherent contradiction. 210823 ... unhinged i am normal...for me 210823 ... kerry there is no normal. (to me) 210823 ... ovenbird Attempting to be normal has only ever resulted in killing off the most unique and soulful pieces of me. I'm too old for normal now. I think it's time to be unabashedly weird. Like running around in my raccoon costume, talking to birds, singing while staring at the sky, going on dinner dates with my dog kind of weird. At some point I'll hit "crazy old lady" territory and everyone will just leave me to it and maybe wistfully look forward to the day when they can let their own souls be as weird as they would like to be. 250429 what's it to you? who go blather from