divisions_and_hypocracies a_pained_seeker_of_ideals_and_an_unfortunately_fer Oh good God am I ever a strange mix of benificient longin and ferocious craving. they say; let it be , just relax, don't try to change, don't try to be something else, but what the fuck? what good will a platitude like this do someone who is inately wired to be ghastly? no. Change is what has to happen, inate wireing is horseshit. Can a HUMAN tame the beast and ride it into excellence? sigh. Forgive me, my hypocrasies are extra painful today. Oh the joys of being self aware.... 010911 what's it to you? who go blather from