but_i_should so fuck it some mornings there is this cloud_in_my_eye now i notice vertical changes and my eye feels like it hurts it hurts, a weird dullness and sharpness strangeness i just feel sick i wish i wasn't so afraid of doctors i know i need to get this checked i know! but i can't . 040917 ... uow i going to go through all my stuff just in case i don't want anyone reading the papers i keep beside my bed 040917 ... uow maybe that's weird of me 040917 ... uow i know blathering this doesn't help either 040917 what's it to you? who go blather from