crash little wonder I got into my first accident last night. The roads were really slippery, but I didn't know it. And while I was going down a hill I pressed on my brakes a little, and my car spun out of control. I almost landed in a ditch, but then I hit a mail box and that sent me back out to the road. I went backwards then and finally got my car stopped on the shoulder... it made me cry. 020129 ... kerry i am really crying for the first time in six months. i dont want to be here. with anyone i know. i dont like anyone anymore it feels like and it feels like people in general are really letting me down and i just want to leave like you said you thought i did you thought i looked like i wanted to get out of here and i do, god i do. its not cool to sit in the basement with my back to the stereo and the phone pressed to my ear when i find that something could've actually happened really bad timing? i dont know. would you have gone away and met her anyway? would you have broken up with me? "well i met this girl, and... so..." i dont know which scenario i would choose if i had a choice. "oh kerry, i'm so sorry. i didnt mean to make you cry, you never cry," she says after telling me what might've happened. "its okay, really, i mean i'm glad you told me." am i? i think so. i am going to see you tomorrow. i dont want to. i wonder if it will make me cry again. i never cry. i hate to cry. 030101 ... kerry and sorry if this is confusing, i read little wonder's blathe ahead of mine and mine is not in response to hers.. just had to clear that up, just in case. 030101 ... mcdouagll i killed my car but on the_brighter_side i'll be saving a hell of a lot of money by walking everywhere 031122 ... birdmad insomniac me, neither the drinks nor the late hour are knocking me down, sitting here in this apartment compartment clacking away at the keys on this laptop, jonesing for a cigarette i have been too broke of late to indulge in mildly annoyed by the small horror of another little cockroach skittering across the floor i have done my best to be neater than when i was mired in depressive apathy, and yet they are more readily obvious than they were when my previous penchant for misery found me burying myself in debris with the hopes that one day it and i would be swept up into the nearest landfill it is nearly five in the morning and i am wide awake, but other than the offending insects, i feel pretty good 070728 what's it to you? who go blather from