shower nom after bath 051113 ... raze i always turn the shower head so it starts out spraying water on the wall instead of on me. that way i don't get hit with a split-second blast of cold before the heat kicks in. today i was too busy wondering how it is that animals are able to keep track of time with only the elements to guide them. how do they do that? i wasn't paying_attention. so when that first jet got me in the chest, it scared the shit out of me. i shouted something in some language i don't even know. then i laughed and got on with the business of getting clean so i could make myself dirty again. 220919 ... tender_square i was in a second floor bathroom with a claw-foot tub that was situated in front of a large window. i put on the shower function, even though the surrounding area had no curtains to keep the water contained. when i turned the tap, the water made a violent spray against the adjacent wall. i tried to adjust the shower head downwards so that it would aim directly into the tub. i stepped into the shower and began washing. i realized that to be in the stream of water required standing in front of the window naked. i was trying to shield myself appropriately, as i could see an apartment building across the street and people inside watching television who could easily avert their eyes and watch me. i noticed there was a balcony outside my window, one without rails, as well as a set of stairs without banisters, both in a wood stained unnaturally red. i wanted to go out there but it didn’t seem safe. and, in fact, i worried about some intruder coming up and breaking in. when i left the bathroom later, i told my ex about this situation and he assured me no one would try to come up there, that i was worrying for no reason. 230630 what's it to you? who go blather from