sensitivity nr one of the doublest, edgiest swords. 250325 ... warmthofrelease I feel so strongly becomes I don't want to feel so often becomes it's easier to just feel less becomes I'd rather not feel anything 250326 ... raze i was made to believe this was a weakness for far too long. now i'm pretty sure it's a superpower. like all superpowers, it has its perks and its pitfalls. 250326 ... releaseofwarmth (bleeds) look at this art I made. Yeah. 250326 ... ovenbird I have similarly spent much of my life believing that sensitivity is a curse. I can’t even count the times I have been told that I am “too sensitive” and “think too much.” The rhetoric suggests that to be sensitive is to be broken and if you are broken you should try to be something else. I have wasted far too much of my life trying to be something else and I’m done with that. As I age I am realizing that I have blamed sensitivity for my anxiety and depression without also giving it credit for the depth of my joy. I have assumed that everyone has the capacity for a full bodied expansive delight when entering the shrine of an ancient forest. I have assumed that others could, if they tried, experience live music so transportive that they would sob in their seats. I have assumed that others feel a similar call towards meaning when the snowdrops first brave the world aboveground in January. But I am discovering that not everyone has this capacity at all. Reading Susan Cain’s book Quiet drove all of this home for me. We live in a world that does not value the skills and unique perspectives of introverts. We’re all supposed to be more outgoing, more outspoken, bigger and louder and willing to self promote at every turn. Our societies might look different if more things were given into the care of sensitive introverts but the primacy of extroverts endures. Barely a day goes by when I don’t feel that being alive is an astoundingly bad fit for a person like me, but I go on anyway, waiting for the moments of delight to find me. 250326 what's it to you? who go blather from