people_i've_lost peyton (in no order) Lisa Lani Liza Kim Lacie Joni Jennifer Julia Jennifer Jennifer Shay(ie) Laura Jenny Summer Bill Daniell Justin Steve Barth Josh Rafter Yolanda Melissa Rhinna Ronnie Phil Patrick Saira Matt Sarah they all have statues 030915 ... peyton Chalk up a few more. But not in such a contrived fashion. Blather is establishing a chronological age timeline for me, which is bizarre. 050619 ... APRicochetMVP it seems that i lost everybody. some moved away, some got married, some got knocked up, some got married AND knocked up, unfortunately a few died (R.I.P.), and the rest don't call for anything. not even to tell me that their numbers have changed and that they don't want to talk to me anymore. i miss the whole crew from some of the best years of my life. but while i've lost almost all of them, i've gained a new group. they honestly care about me and worry about me. especially susan. she's amazing. i can't wait to see her this weekend. i can't wait to hear those 3 words fall from her soft delicate lips. i occasionally try to re-establish contact or make a new crew for when i'm home, but it just doesn't feel right. partially because there's no trust left in the world, partially because i feel like tyler durden in fight club where he considers everybody single serving friends. maybe i just need to get laid. i can hold out for 4 more days. so to all the ones who touched my life at some point in those 8 years, i thank you. i'll always be there for you all. just holla at me. i'll always keep lookin' for the ones that are still in this plane of existance. those who have passed, i'll meet you on the other side. 050619 ... raze they were never really mine to begin with. 130328 ... Risen I lost a lot of people when I was crazy. Yet now I have found the ones that matter. The most important person I've lost is the person I used to be. I shrugged her off, fought her off, dragged her away, worked harder than anyone will ever know to banish her. She didn't stop haunting me til I had righted her worst wrongs. And oh how light my shoulders feel now. 130401 what's it to you? who go blather from