laura the fire inside i'm going to set this aside for what i really think of laura. i've written all this other stuff on blue but i think this how i'm always going to feel. i REALLY love you, but i'm not getting anywhere by trying to trick myself into thinking that i have any chance at all. i can see that you are just not interested and no matter how many times i say that i love you and try to convince you. it's just not going to work. i don't like giving up and this is very hard. you won't ever read this but it feels better getting it out. that in itself was a lie, i'm feeling sick in the stomach as i write this and i know that i won't ever get over you not really. i don't know what to say really. i love you and you don't love me. simple ..... painful ..... and truthful 041107 what's it to you? who go blather from