old_friend DammitJanet i lost you so long ago first as a friend in an elementary school fight where i cried at the thought that you'd be mad at me. then again when you moved away and i lost touch with you. i blame myself for that, i was never good at keeping up with letters. but i found you again through a mother who shopped non stop who happened to recognize me out of sheer chance. it's been so long yet the memories came back like it was just last year. those 17 years without you seemed to shrink to nothing when you hugged me. we hugged and we got tears in our eyes and we talked and laughed all while my managers snarled. fuck them. it's you. the one i lost and always regretted. i loved you so much. 030520 ... PeeT sea wolf 121220 ... raze this one slammed right into my guts. i had a friend like that. change a few of the details and it could be my story. the only real difference is, there was no happy reunion. i tried for years to find her, off and on. i never did. eventually i gave up. i doubt she'd even remember me at this point. it's been almost twenty years since the last time we saw one another. we were still kids. i didn't know much about love then, but i knew i loved her, in a direct, uncomplicated way. i don't know what she felt for me. for all i know, i was just another boy on the playground. wherever she is, whoever she is now, i hope she's happy and surrounded by people who care about her. 130723 what's it to you? who go blather from