moving_dreams
newme almost every night i have a dream that i'm moving. this has been going on for as far back as i can remember but as the years have passed and the houses changed so have my dreams.
my current constant story usually involves a scenario where i learn i can't live here (present home) anymore for some reason (like for instance the landlord wants to move back in or is planning on selling the house or is giving it to one of his sons).
i find myself at my last home. this is a nightmare. i don't want to be there and i know i shouldn't be there because a happy new family lives there now.
there's always something to do with a storm and saving kittens. the roses have grown and the old neighbour is gone. i find myself a ghost in the dark. and i often end up alone on the highway walking for hours. half the time i make it back to another old home of mine, the one in town at the top of the hill. and sometimes i get as far as vancouver. i keep dreaming hoping i'll make it back to my today home, this house i live in and love, this silly old farm i share with my family.
i know we'll probably have to move again. i just don't want to move. i don't even want to think about moving. i don't want to dream about old homes. 		040722
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newme i'm worried that a future me is dreaming about my today home. 040722
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newme sometimes i think maybe i'm already haunting this place. 040722
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newme and it's the not the fear of leaving it's of being unable to return 040722
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newme i've gotta stop having these dreams i just have to let go and move on 040722
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monee every_night_mares
every_day_mares 		050104
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monee the dream changes
but it's always the same) 		050104
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nom after i moved to my apartment i stopped dreaming about observatory so much.

and after i went to vancouver i stopped dreaming of there like before.


now since i moved out of my apartment i keep dreaming i'm back in it, but i'm not supposed to be there. i have a few things with me still and it's a bit of a mess. i realize the light is on. i get scared my landlord is going to find me.

i haven't dreamt about the farm because i've kept my room. i still dream about the beach house. 		060723
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nom the first night in my september room in vancouver "i woke up laughing in the middle of the night" 061109
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