to_my_love madness you let me violate you you let me desecrate you you let me penetrate you you let me complicate you help me i broke apart my insides help me i've got no soul to sell help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself i want to fuck you like an animal i want to feel you from the inside i want to fuck you like an animal my whole existence is flawed you get me closer to god you can have my isolation you can have the hate that it brings you can have my absence of faith you can have my everything help me tear down my reason help me it's your sex i can smell help me you make me perfect help me become somebody else i want to fuck you like an animal i want to feel you from the inside i want to fuck you like an animal my whole existence is flawed you get me closer to god through every forest, above the trees within my stomach, scraped off my knees i drink the honey inside your hive you are the reason i stay alive 010821 ... silentbob its ok, just forget it ever happened. 010822 ... volante she's got me feelin'_musical today (even more than before) 010822 ... unhinged my imagination has made me push away all the good things i never had. reality is always more blue. i live inside my fantasy like a dwarf under a bridge. i collect the toll every now and then, but mostly i just hide in the shadows of everyone else's bustle. i was hiding in the shadows when you met me and i had to go back to where it was comfortable. i had to push you away because i only wanted what was comfortable for myself. change has always been too hard for me. too hard. 010822 ... distorted tendencies I never want to let go. Not fucking ever. Not if someone dragged me by the jugular. (If they did I'd still be holding on.) p.s. I wish you were here. 011008 ... continuous light i would gladly take my last breath where you lay your head just to smell your scent one last time. and i would rip the heavens from it's fixture in the sky for seven more seconds of hope's last lie. i would cut my own chest open wide so you could see what you only guessed was inside. but i've seen all the truth i need in your eyes; you'll never be free to be mine. so this is the last time. -goodbye- 011229 ... madness your defect is only thinking you're defective I do love you 020113 ... no longer solitary Thank you for holding on, and for being the soft pillow underneath my boggled head. 030217 ... eye oh, how you lied 050629 ... APRicochetMVP i long to be with you again. i want to spend my coming days with you. who knows what the future holds, but i'd like to think that ours holds each other. i want to hold you again. this next 3 weeks will be the longest ever, but i can make it through if you can. we'll make it. 050629 what's it to you? who go blather from