negativity blown cherry the cynic I want to spread this everywhere. In thick gooey layers over the top of everything, like extra smooth peanut butter. Smear it into corners, watch it invade every space, every mind. Like a disease, you come near me and you'll catch it, watch out! It's all wrong. It's all wrong. It's all wrong. Nothing fits. It's all wrong. Be evil. Be wrong. Feel the searing blackness flood through the back of your head, and creep and tear and shove it's way into the outer most reaches of your brain. There is no way out of this negativity. It is all encompassing. Like a great big cuddly warm blanket. 020407 ... silentbob i don't like it 020407 ... guitar_freak Man. I go to my boyfriend's prom and all I heard all night from people was how much he talkes about me and how negitive I am... 020407 ... Scarlet Photos there is no beauty in senselessness. I embrace the dark but not the stupid 020408 ... amy it's a trick. 020902 ... leni there's nothing like a good twist of the knife it's just one way of looking at things and a waste of time and probably causes cancer. no - that's anger. lets go there. 060814 ... amy in red when emotions are king in your life, then that's what negativity gets to be, much of the time. most feelings are a negative response to life. but not always. that's why most people have children, i figure. to get in touch with the part of themselves that doesn't know any better. nothing wrong with that, for oneself. it puts a lot on children, though. no matter how you look at it, a change in my life needs a lottery win or a good job. or a partner with cash to share and the spirit of helping and generosity to go with it. i figure that's a mighty triumvirate and it says something about life. 160912 ... amy in red yesterday my father called our family in the 80s a "sitting bankruptcy" but my mother disagreed. this is that old argument about whether there was any time and energy for her to take art classes. which she did, because she gets what she wants/needs. she genuinely gives back though. so i don't ding her for it, it's just we had to put up with an awful lot of arguments. and my dad was kind of the loser from the get-go. i do my best to make it up to him by not going against his wishes. but that doesn't mean i get to "have a life". i'm just one long tread-water born of wanted, and also unwanted, pregnancy. this is why i needed leg-ups and charity to be saved from a life-in-shadow. but, i find, the truth is, knowing me, part of me did ask to be born this way. it's just always up in the air if it was an intelligence or unconsciousness that put it in place. and the roles of guardians, angels, master plans, karma, that foo-foo stuff that is actually real if you take other accoutrements away. in that sense, one's "lot in life" has all the information about itself. and there's no ambitious Choose Your Own Destiny that has any meaning. so don't even try. you will betray your parents' choice, in 1975. 160912 what's it to you? who go blather from