letting_go wisdom torch pain is self-knowledge, wisdom. and you knows that you're cared for when the wind blows it away and you can accept that. 020502 ... Cicero Falling, spining and pulling This black cutain down around me Letting the light burn one final image Into the anonymous brown of my eyes 030511 ... megan i just feel like he doesn't want me much anymore not in that 'need to have her' type of way it hurts so much, he's my life, literally i don't know if i should let go or not he swears he loves me 030511 ... paleblue I've had a terrible time unfreezing out of my past. I wish there were a defrost button. It's all about letting go of the little things that cling to you, and the people who held you. Although, I can't seem to do either. The progress I've made in the last two years is the complete isolation of myself from people that I once called friends. The insertion of a stable relationship with my family and a certain 'most-significant-of-others'. But I still find it hard to write. And I still find it hard to breathe sometimes. And I still find it so hard, just letting go. 060919 ... unhinged there is something about you. an unstoppable magnet. i've been with several different guys since, but all of them put together don't know me the way that you do. there is a definite but indescribable pull to that sensation knowing that i don't even need to say anything to communicate with you we look at each other and that is enough or a_well_placed_silence in a telephone conversation you know what i meant effortless and then you get wasted and defensive and do and say the nastiest shit possible i can't stand another brokenheart from you i was weak my hormones were overwhelming me that voicemail pierced my heart (which is why i should delete them without listening i know this sometimes my sadomasochist impulses take over) you tried you asked me but i couldn't tell you about the guys in the backseat of the car in the park about the creepy asshole that followed me home i don't need to give you that ammunition for the next time you are wasted i don't trust you anymore i shouldn't trust you anymore i'll get through it on my own like i always have 130523 ... unhinged dovetailed with that tenacious little part of my heart that doesn't want to let_go it wasn't the same with him we had the physical attraction but our hearts weren't in the same place 130524 what's it to you? who go blather from