a_list_of_things_i'm_likely_to_keep_doing nr drinking red_wine talking_to_myself supporting progressive politics and lifestyles overthinking travelling playing drums playing with words playing looking and listening 221106 ... nr escaping 221106 ... nr fearing deliberating magnifying 221106 ... nr hanging out with animals 221106 ... kerry eating peanut butter out of the jar procrastinating reading multiple books at the same time 221107 ... raze worrying. swearing. stubbornly refusing to get rid of what's already in the process of leaving. walking. drooling in my sleep. stubbing my toes. forgetting what i want to remember. remembering what i wish i could forget. dreaming of people and animals i haven't seen in years. not getting dressed on sundays. loving and hating with everything i have. sliding down the stairs that trouble me like a child who hasn't yet learned how to stand. dying in increments too small to notice now. dancing when no one's watching. shielding my face from the rain. falling full-speed into certain disaster and choosing not to open the parachute i was given. breathing. for now. 221107 ... ovenbird Hiding the best snacks from my kids. Taking scalding hot showers. Singing a good morning song to my dog. Using tea as my primary source of hydration. Having panic attacks. Singing along loudly to “Bohemian Rhapsody.” Doing a slipshod job of cleaning the house. Being accused of an off-putting amount of intensity. Writing the ongoing story of my life in ink. Feeling inadequate. Buying the Dutch Crunch Mesquite BBQ chips, even though I know I will binge eat the whole bag. Hating loud parties. Overanalyzing my past. Talking to birds. Being unsure if I want to be alive. Getting out of bed every morning anyway. 251202 what's it to you? who go blather from