sent_off
bijou
my
application
to
the
school
in
new
york.
i'm
afraid
they
will
say
no
but
even
more
afraid
that
they
will
say
yes
.
i'm
afraid
to
leave
everybody
here
.
i'm
afraid
to
leave
the
great
job
i
have
,
and
i'm
afraid
that
after
i
spend
thirtythousanddollars
on
my
last
2
years
of
school
that
i'm
not
going
to
be
able
to
get
a
job
and
i'll
be
worse
off
than
i
was
before
.
i'm
afraid
i
will
be
raped,
robbed
and
murdered.
i'm
scared
of
how
alone
i
will
be
.
i'm
afraid
of
never
seeing
the
grass
.
i'm
really
scared
.
i'm
also
pretty
excited
.
rabbit
,
rabbit
,
for
jinx
removing,
i
think
they're
gonna
say
yes
.
i'm
so
excited
.
040709
...
Sonya
What
was
the
outcome
of
this
bijou
?
Well
I
guess
I
can
hope
that
they
said
"
yes
"
and
you're
too
busy
living
your
dream
to
really
answer
. *
smile
*
This
"
being
scared
"
is
something
that
I
am
feeling
right
now
and
it
will
become
magnified
later
this
year
when
I
apply
for
a
transfer
to
a
4
year
uni
I
really
want
to
go
to
.
Sometimes
we
just
have
to
bite
the
bullet
and
go
for
it
...and
being
scared
has
to
wait
for
awhile
.
I
feel
it
in
my
bones
right
now
.
I
was
told
by
someone
I
used
to
work
with
that
I
have
too
much
ambition
for
my
own
good
. "
Damn
right
I
have
ambition
!
I
want
to
go
out
and
not
just
see
the
world
...I
want
to
LIVE
IT
girl
!"
She
just
laughed
at
me
and
wished
me
the
best
of
luck
before
I
left
.
the
hopeful
feline
050726
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
