just_filling_up_space kerry last night i had a conversation with someone online that made me dread going back to school once again. it was this type of thing: 1:hey 2:hi 1:whats up? 2:not a whole lot, you? 1:nothin really. 2:cool. 1:ok well i have to go bye once i realized that this girl and i had nothing to talk about i freaked and blocked her to avoid the awkwardness. and then i realized that these conversations basically ARE school for me. and summer is almost over. weeks pass, shit happens. something i think is fascinating is that someone would call me with the intention of being around me. i don't know why that surprises me so much, because i guess i like myself. reasonably. i was thinking about will today. and yesterday and before that too. i was thinking i don't like him as much for a lot of the reasons max and i discussed. but aside from all that, i still kind of would like to kiss him. i want to kiss him and see if i FEEL anything. if i get butterflies, or knot up, or feel giddy. or to see if i am repulsed, even. or to see if i am numb. but that would make me want to go around kissing EVERYONE just to see if i felt anything. but hey, maybe that wouldn't be so bad.... people change. apparently bo was in a car accident which totalled her mom's (i think it's a) mercedes and she is/was also temporarily blind in one eye, but is ok now. exposure_boy spent weeks backpacking with devin and gabe in utah and went to backpacking camp in northern california. "even though it sucks that you're always bored, you're pretty good about it. i mean at least you're not destructive or anything." 030724 ... frAnk you can kiss me. 030725 ... bandersnatch i i did i did this i did this to i did this to take i did this to take up i did this to take up space i must have had this written 3 times in my yearbook. it was anoying 030726 ... kerry cool, frAnk. 030726 what's it to you? who go blather from