i_searched_my_notes_for_the_word_sun warmthofrelease the grass and flowers reach out to the sun don't know what I'm doing with anything or anyone the moon and the prisoner continue to decay but they don't do so at the same rate will I ever help myself (April 2023) We took LSD at 10 am on a Wednesday and walked to the predominantly african american barbershop on the old town storefront and laughed with our friends and neighbors and got some wonderful trims and shaves and had a great time and we only wore sunglasses when we were outside (June 2015) invite me back grab my wrists recline me slow I could only ever be a hamlet when you wanted a romeo I know my father can't understand my generation that song has been sung many times your parents never considered what you'd come to be all those little genetic equations to conceive your imperfect alchemy I can think of a thousand reasons why you would have to leave me but I still can't find a why (August 2019) (I might have used this one before? I don't know) (regards J J) feels nice to be damaged again "'I_hate_it_everyone' said the sun" waste no_one_will_save_me fashion_your_dreams passion and compassion can get in each other's way don't they bull_in_a_china_shop peter_pan plenty of blood on the road yes I want your roses but I can't trade my wings the blood is cold people always seem so surprised how the desert can get so cold at night but that's exactly how it goes when you're barren and dry signifier of a cold blooded life (October 2018) the sun turns dark and whispers to be let in the_kill_is_always_mercy introduce your next last friend (May 2016) (Gardening Friend) we could hear it clearly thundering still I didn't think the storm was coming you weren't living so much as tumbling and I was never gonna call you out you didn't know yourself but you knew what you were doing you didn't know me but you knew that I was listening we didn't know who we thought we were kidding and I was never gonna ask you out but we were grave as the holes we were digging we were as sad as the songs we loved singing we made a story without a beginning it was already over but it still had to end we were licorice stars and whistling we were bike pedals drenched in listerine we were just bit short of everything but the sun does rise and we do pretend my gardening friend (October 2023) (regards P J) did you forget to enjoy the heat did you forget to enjoy the sun did you forget to enjoy the sound of laughter did you forget to enjoy the fact that your days are numbered (May 2021) The sun was playing peekaboo this afternoon, teasing a glorious and badly needed return. And in this dark night just barely on the other side of our new moon, through the fog and the haze and the streetlights and the doubts I can see a few stars. I don't feel trapped in this rut. I have a lot of hope for the future, near and far. But for this immediate moment I really need to just fold myself back into my wings and hurt. Please understand. (August 2018) 250715 what's it to you? who go blather from