i_searched_my_notes_for_the_word_end warmthofrelease how many times will this thing end before it begins (April 2015) I don't behave attractively confident the higher me knows I can't fuck depression away the higher me keeps me low unenthusiastic about what I need end up with nothing that bitter choice not to fool myself and them (April 2020) the concurrent conclusion is safety_in_numbers, or safety in variation pouring of the endless self the concurrent conclusion is to go back, I'm not ready for the blackness I don't want this story to end whether or not it fits the design the concurrent conclusion is NO and I will save myself and NO there is no winning I will choose the longer of two paths (January 2018) part of my voice is so singular it tells me you better go find some more endlessly I know the problem (May 2015) I've seen the clouds move faster I've seen a darker light I've seen the roads obscured by floodwaters and floating tides I've seen the air grow thin I've seen the fire die I've seen the neverending story end and so will I (February 2018) (line of the end) you can't take everything so personally even if your vendetta makes the legs on which you stand (da-da) you can't sustain the anger and maintain your focus all at once to be able to tell the ones who dig for gold from the ones who eat the lotus you_got_a_lotta_nerve_to_complain ...but_then_again_I_can_see where_youre_coming_from when you say it all_seems_the_same (September 2017) your honeymoon will never end you will be hibernating forever you will take_your_borrowed_time_in_gulps until it drowns you--how does it feel to be so free (April 2017) maybe after they exist beyond our perception, they'll exist forever! (shakes head) I don't think it works like that we've been given an ending, as well as a beginning, and we didn't ask for either one. So maybe we've been had. Yes. Yes maybe we have. But we should definitely make something of it either way. Yes. Yes we must. Wait, but why? (May 2015) it always seems (stacatto) the hu man traits I hate the most are those (end) of which I am guilty I wi sh you know how I ended every day I wi sh you know how I want to give and take but that ho le doesn't give you a ny way to li ve (August 2022) "Besser eine Ende mit Schrecken als ein Schrecken ohne Ende" (August 2017) 250908 what's it to you? who go blather from