exile hail and farewell i must be going (so long, farewell, auf wedersehen, goodnight!) in my attempt to help someone who i've come to care about, i incurred her wrath and now she hates me, perhaps she's right i fully and completely understand now that i was a fool to ever believe i could be anything worthwhile i will not offend her any further with my presence so to you all i say farewell and this time i think i mean it and to that one, i really was only trying to help and would do anything to redeem myself in your eyes you know how to reach me. signing off for Chiidi birdmad karasu (sorry, perhaps its for the best i dont finish the "novel") and any other names i may have used and left out i leave you with a phrase from the latin: ave atque vale 010805 ... mad how could you have done that to me? if you cared so much... all the people laughing all the people staring being held against my will that was supposed to make me feel better? how cruel of you I don't think you understand 010805 ... dead bird i still havent slept and now knowing that what i did ended up hurting you i cant stop crying how cruel was it to put me in that position? did you think of that? even the times i've had a gun to my head didn't terrify me as much as the thought of what might have been happening to you i guess i was right to fear that somewhere along the line you would be the one to find a reason to hate me i'll beg for your forgiveness if that's what it takes 010805 ... nocturnal bye. we'll miss you. please come back, at least every now and then. 010805 ... fallen birdmad: sorry to see you go you were a pearl to many people 010806 ... MisterFunkadelic On Main Street (by the way, bird, come back soon, you write some sweet shit, dude.) 010806 ... silentbob in guyville 010806 ... kerry maybe if i stay here underground i won’t have to answer any more questions or make any plans just lean on the cold tile listen to george harrison until my ears bleed it’s nice and warm down here 211013 what's it to you? who go blather from