congratulations argo Tomorrow is my last day of schooling. Ever. Good riddance. 030527 ... lotuseater hooray hooray! fucking school. 030527 ... Freak This is my last day of high school. You talk about how you can't wait until it's over and now all of a sudden it has managed to sneak up on me and I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm going to miss so many people and so many things. I'm also going to be glad to get away from so many people and so many things. It's a win and lose situation in one. 030528 ... little wonder there are all of these invitations and signs around town to graduation parties. the hallmarks are filled with graduation cards and gifts, there are balloons on the corners showing the way to erica's or betty's or john's party. it depresses me to think of what a huge failure my party was, and how the whole time i wanted to curl up and die because my parents had just gotten divorced, and no one really showed up. everyone counted their hundreds of dollars and I think I might have just broken one hundred, if that. i had a pile of cards in this basket I insisted on putting out, because everyone put out a basket. A few of them showed up from the hospital, but my dad was never good about passing the word on about those kinds of things. Since it was so last minute, only 2 of my aunts and one of my cousins came from my mom's side. She has 10 brothers and sisters, and I have over 20 cousins. Congratulations. Here's ten bucks for completing high school, even though I'm not really sure why I'm giving you it other than it's customary. I'm going to leave your pathetic party with it's over-abundance of food and cake, and feel sorry for you on my drive home. 030604 ... raze beard bristles on a blanket begat a one-word affirmation. i spent the rest of the night trying to locate the source of the sound, when it was only me, telling myself something pretty with a voice that wasn't my own. 221215 what's it to you? who go blather from