dear_father Soma I want to know what you want from me. Except I already know. Don't I? I just wish I understood. You never talk to me. Or am I just never listening? 181010 ... unhinged thank you for letting me be who i really am a violinist a buddhist a space_cadet for never jamming me into the boxes you thought i should fit into; ive had a hard enough time with myself without being boxed_up by paternal expectation you were not perfect neither was i let's keep being imperfect together 181011 what's it to you? who go blather from