your_lies Sonya I know of some of your lies now and I'm left feeling disappointed and disgusted. It makes me wonder what else you've lied to me about over the years and I'm starting to realize I'm not very good at discerning a lie from a truth...because when you're dealing with a superb actor, there's no way to tell. You lied to me that day on the phone when you said you went with "no one". Part of me knew that couldn't be completely true, but I know just how deep the lie runs now. I couldn't help but laugh hysterically when I found it all out, but at the same time I feel sad for the guy who actually looks up to you who hasn't a clue about what you did. You have no shame, and your humiliation was your punishment. It only makes me realize just how pathetic you have become due to the circumstances. I wish I could be there for you, but having been pushed away and emotionally snapped at and taken for granted...I can only say it's not my place anymore. I don't think I wish for it to be any longer. And I'm not sorry, because all I ever wanted was the truth and only that. I didn't always receive this. Is it any wonder that now I feel even more empty? Your lies consumed me. 050724 ... Syrope you don't even understand how they're lies i've never been really lied to, not to my face, it was always a broken promise that was later insisted not to have been a promise at all, but a suggestion...or a flatout claim that i must have misunderstood but i didn't misunderstand i finally felt like i meant something, but just like when you promised to cut her out of your life completely and came through on about 5% of that, this is ...well a repeat. i'm going to do this all myself while you play and revel in things i find disgusting and childish. i don't mean anything. you flatter me to keep me around but i saw the smirk on your face when i told you to go the second time. and you left without saying you loved me. again. i want to bottle this feeling. this utter indignance, this feeling of "i'm worth more than this" i'm just comfortable not happy you said you'd change 050725 what's it to you? who go blather from