xo
raze
i
didn't
learn
to
love
you
until
you
were
already
gone
.
josh
tried
to
get
me
into
your
music
in
the
middle
of
that
strange
summer
when
we
were
almost
second
-best
friends
for
a
while
,
until
it
all
went
to
shit
.
he
let
me
borrow
a
few
of
your
albums.
he
snuck "
the
enemy
is
you
"
onto
a
great
mix
cd
he
made
me
.
i
liked
that
one
because
it
had
an
f_bomb
in
it
.
i
liked
the
title
track
on
"
roman_candle
".
nothing
else
really
stuck
to
me
.
i
can
still
hear
josh's
voice
on
the
phone
the
night
the
news
broke
that
you
were
dead
.
he
was
just
drunk
enough
to
keep
it
together
.
he
sounded
like
he'd
lost
his
whole
family
.
in
a
way
,
i
think
he
had
.
when
"
from
a
basement
on
the
hill
"
came
out
,
i
bought
the
cd
and
listened
to
it
for
the
first
time
when
everyone
i
knew
was
asleep
.
the
quiet
menace
and
battered
beauty
of
your
songs
pinned
me
to
my
bed
for
an
hour
.
i
went
out
the
next
day
and
bought
every
album
you
made
.
yesterday
i
was
listening
to
"
waltz
#
2
"
for
the
first
time
in
too
many
years
.
i
forgot
those
dive
-bombing
strings
near
the
end
were
coming
.
it
sounded
like
the
whole
world
was
disintegrating
around
your
ankles
while
you
sang
, "
i'm
never
gonna
know
you
now
,
but
i'm
gonna
love
you
anyhow."
your
mantra
to
someone
you
invented
or
saw
with
emotional
x
-ray
vision
from
a
million
miles
away
has
always
been
my
goodbye
to
you
,
only
you're
singing
it
with
your
own
voice
,
and
i
can
see
you
smiling
through
the
sadness
in
a
way
no
one
else
could
manage
without
looking
like
a
liar
.
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