steadfast unhinged i cannot pretend that i am anymore. you hurt me over and over and it feels better to let_go. but then again, i still think of you at night when i'm lonely don't i? 090531 ... unhinged i flirted with his best friend (i was getting coffee at the coffeeshop he works at) and i couldn't help thinking of his lips, laying next to him naked, the way he sometimes laughed like my ex. the night i kissed his best friend when he asked for it because it seemed like the best revenge or maybe the closest substitute. i am never the dumper, always the dumpee. the thought of having to tell someone to go away is making me sick. 090601 ... Bespeckled I stand in the face of opposition, doubt, the weakness of others. If you have something to hide, then go away from me and don't look back. As long as I trust you, you are mine, and I am yours. Strong and determined, nothing will stand in my way. Not doubt, not regret, not fear, not games - not you. There is always another city to call home, another coast to run to, another virtuous man to believe in, another victorious day for me to clutch. 090602 ... unhinged this new year finds me feeling stronger than i have in a long time, if ever. when a lion is roused he shakes his mane out and roars revealing his true nature the wisdom of the universe is in her year of the lion 220104 what's it to you? who go blather from