hope_falls_in_drops aM i DiStUrBeD? Tears of your poison, Escaping from my life at last. Leaving me to breathe on my own, To return to myself once again. These tears are just your poison leaving my system. Picking myself up from the floor of your heart, Dusting myself off from the past. Reawakening the sleeping from its ashes, Dazed, subdued, but anew. These tears are just your poison leaving my system. Overpowered with the sense of my mind. At last giving birth to myself, Death to your being. But the world doesn’t stop. These tears are just your poison leaving my system. Striving for self righteousness, Fighting for the right to be myself. Rejected but not at a loss, Better all round for the mirror of the past. These tears are just your poison leaving my system. Falling through your back door, Closing it in your face. Felling the relief of the sunshine, At last saving me from your "grace". These tears are just your poison leaving my system. 041008 ... mourninglight hope that tomorrow will be brighter than today.. I am not the kind of person who runs out to find a pair of blue sunglasses..just so that the sky appears less gray than it is. it is simply gray. and some days I am simply gray and other days are brighter. you misunderstood one thing about me. I cannot force myself to be something I am not. when my world crashes around me and I'm scrambling for definition..or form..I will not wander through crushed sandcastles with a blissful smile on my face. I will look around at the mess wondering what on earth happened..and I will cry myself to sleep some nights. it is not me refusing to be happy.. it is me struggling to comprehend my surroundings..then cope. knowledge followed by action. nevertheless there was a drop of hope today. and the music flowed for the first time in a week. I thank you for that. this is officially my first autumn where my life was reborn before the snow melted. 041008 what's it to you? who go blather from