dear_god guitar_freak Hey? whats up in your celestial neighborhood? This whole AA thing has be thinking. I've been sober for almost two years now, but can't seem to take that all important 3rd Step. How do I go from not knowing what I believe in to knowing what I believe in? My sponser tells me just to pray every morning to help me stay sober and to say thanks every night. My sponser says that faith comes in time and eventually it will come just by doing these actions. I feel like a hypocrite. There are so many others who can get this into their heads a lot quicker than I. I want to believe in something greater than myself, but honestly I feel quite incapable of believing in something I just can't see. I don't know what to do. I know that this program has helped millions of alcoholics by showing them a spiritual way of life. I know it isn't religous and that it doesn't matter what I choose to call god, but this isn't easy for me at all. I wish it were. I feel stagnant in my recovery and I want to get better and stronger, but I know that faith is what I need most. I've never had faith in anybody or anything until I came to AA. These people showing me what friendship and trust are. There are many people with many years of sobriety and they all have one thing in common- belief and dependence on a higher power whatever it may be to them. How do I choose my own conception? How do I even form a conception? I feel so stuck. I can't force myself to believe. I wish I could. I just don't know where to go from here. I've seen many people get to where I am right now and walk out and get drunk. They don't come back, they sit at the bar. I don't want that for me. I need to move on. Just please show me HOW to believe, trust, or have faith in something. Please! 030605 what's it to you? who go blather from