as_my_breath_comes_in_gasps crOwl there are cracks around the window of my soul where water leaks in and turns to ice where responsibility escapes and changes to neglect like a magic trick turned bad how could i be so careless when i am so careful? p r i o r i t y there are certain things that must be done in their time check or it is too late. 051120 ... unhinged sad_little_breathing_machines my heart rate was dangerously slow. it felt like there was a block of concrete on my chest constricting my lungs and my heart. i couldn't comprehend the television. reality floated on the edge of consciousness. i lay on the couch gasping, not sure when i would finally pass out. not sure if i would wake up when i finally did. reality melted into a dream. there's no saftey in dreams 051120 ... megan you kiss me up and down my neck taking the time to nibble my ears and suck on my lips and as my breath comes in gasps i shut my eyes and realize god, what a wonderful feeling i've been missing all these long years 051120 ... misstree my body is too busy, overridden by taser-like jolts along overopened nerves. i have you bring me here so i can leave my meat behind, and it tries to resent it, though it will sleep easy for a week, a day, with satiety. i want to gasp again, rather than taste each breath as substitute for sustenance. 051121 what's it to you? who go blather from