consciousness
kyla
"
and
in
the
word
the
dream
is
hid,
and
in
the
dream
the
deed"
071007
...
epitome of incomprehensibility
I
don't
really
understand
my
own
.
Or
how
I
can
theorize
how
best
to
act
and
then
not
act
that
way
.
An
overexamined
life
isn't
worth
living
,
said
Socrates'
twin
Pythagoras.
And
then
turned
himself
into
a
triangle
.
210112
...
unhinged
what
good
is
it
if
you
can
no
longer
speak
,
walk
,
sit
,
stand
,
eat
,
drink
?
he
was
trying
to
roll
over
in
the
bed
but
is
too
weak
now
to
even
lift
his
own
body
.
his
speech
is
gone
so
he
was
just
moaning
.
i
prepared
a
syringe
of
liquid
pain
meds
and
let
him
know
what
it
was
and
that
everyone
else
was
asleep
.
his
eyes
looked
towards
my
voice
but
i
don't
think
he
can
see
me
anymore
.
i
asked
him
to
open
his
mouth
and
he
did
so
i
emptied
the
syringe
into
his
mouth
and
he
fell
back
asleep
i
did
not
want
something
like
this
to
be
the
last
memories
of
my
father
but
the
universe
gave
us
no
other
choice
fuck
cancer
210116
...
unhinged
just
a
few
hours
later
the
nurse
came
and
gave
him
his
morphine
cause
none
of
us
could
bear
to
do
it
and
within
twenty
minutes
his
life
had
left
his
body
even
when
she
came
back
two
hours
later
and
officially proclaimed
him
dead
part
of
me
did
not
want
to
believe
he
was
gone
six_momths_later.
part
of
me
still
does
not
want
to
believe
he
is
gone
maybe
because
i
can
still
hear
him
,
his
voice
so
strong
it
reaches
past
the
grave
but
i
know
the
body
is
gone
i
glance
at
the
urn
of
it's
ashes
at
least
once
per
day
to
remind
myself
but
his
voice
his
dadisms
still
echo
in
my
mind
210803
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from