wildfire PeeT i know the exact moment. we were playing hot potato. milly was the only one unwilling to leave her seat while she sat in the stew pot. woe to me. i never saw such destruction. 120131 ... PeeT There are so many bad performances, at least that I saw in my life and I have to say I made a few of them myself. There is one that I remember in the '70s. I was doing it and in the middle of the performance I started to think, this is huge bullshit. It was incredible. I got so sick, I had a temperature, I was vomiting. Physically, I was completely out. But this experience is important because failure is a very important part of being an artist. You have to risk in your work. And if you risk, you go to completely unknown territory and so you can fail. And the failure is a big learning process. If you don't risk, it means you are always doing the same thing. Then you are so boring and you can never surprise yourself. I hate repetition. Even when I am home and have to buy milk, I go a different way each time to avoid having a habit of anything. Habits are really bad. So to me it is really important to live in what I call the spaces in-between. Bus stations, trains, taxis or waiting rooms in airports are the best places because you are open to destiny, you are open to everything and anything can happen because you are out of this kind of protection you build around yourself. 120131 what's it to you? who go blather from