what_dream_is_this Lovers Lament So I had a particularly disturbing nightmare. And I used this word at the end. When I woke up I realized I had no idea what the word meant, so I googled it. And it fit perfectly. I dunno that I could properly explain it, but it seemed as though I was in a city of sin. I was trying to win back the affection of a guy I had dated when I was 17 or so, his name was Keith (I am now 31), and he had just gotten through with an initiation ritual of some sort, when he told me he realized that we were not meant to be. (The stage for this dream was set in a Japanese style city with those wooden structures that are built fairly high and have a terrace on each level.) Anyhow, I got angry and starting slinging stuff around, and Keith hands me a phone. At first I don't want to take it. I finally do and it is the voice of an older man. He asks if I know who he is, and though I've never spoken to him, I say a name. I forgot what it was, only that it was a weird name. He was Keith's mentor? (not exactly the right word, but closest I can get). Anyhow he started explaining to me why it had to be this way, when suddenly he stops and shouts, "She's an innocent!". (When he shouts it, it's like someone shouting that in their midst has been something that is dangerous and could cause their downfall and it is me). All of a sudden I have this aura of light around me (and I may have levitated a bit) and I am then blasted off one of the high terraces of this city into the nearby lake or ocean, I am confused as I surface, and I try to get to land. As I reach landfall, I realize that I have been cast back in time and there is no way for me to return, and I am consumed by wrath. This is the best adjective, because it was like biblical wrath. And I start destroying things with superhuman strength, and in a powerful, otherworldly voice that is not my own, I begin to shout as I destroy "You are all chattel, and your children's children are chattel" at which point I wake up into a panic attack. I have never had a dream like this, where I am cast almost as an avenging angel at the end. It bothered me, and when I woke up I realized I didn't know what chattel even meant. So I looked it up, there are two definitions, but one resonated with me as the correct definition of how I was using the word in the dream which was "a slave". What dream is this? Why would I have a dream like this? What is it about this dream that upon waking puts me right into a panic attack and simultaneously makes me want to cry? 130405 what's it to you? who go blather from