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native persimmon
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This is: somewhere above and behind my eyebrows Melting nests of matted fuzziness have congealed in the heat, indolently oozing into each other to form a hardening enamel; I am unable to make the connection.
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birdmad
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thought and vision obscured by white_noise in the places where the voices of the dead sometimes make themselves known
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.flowerock.
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why does my mind cling like static to the image of you? my mind is... furling, un furling, spiraling in and out... my soul is reaching and seeking... inside a little girl is striking tally marks on the wall, counting the days, now reach out? now? did they? will they?... counting... it hasn't been that long. it's not so much a problem as just a bit strange, a little embarrassing if I thought you could see in... and then I wonder through dreams, because eye contact in dreams is so strange... can you? and then I laugh at myself... oh self... chill out, furlout... pay attention to how the breathing changes the curling...
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Risen
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I am stood still, static I know what I have to do, what I have to write. Send a clear, definitive signal. Make it right, make it lasting... My truth is a kernel inside a hard shell I've built, and I think I could keep it hidden forever... but does that make me a coward? Is there a point if it will never be seen? Do I have an obligation to be truthful here? To myself... to the story of this place that I will re-read one day, with the benefit of hindsight... that I would give anything to have.
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.flowerock.
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I cling. I don't mean to be a creeper... but I texted... and no response for over two weeks... so... I emailed... 5 hours ago. I need to learn to be my own friend... because I either want your (anyone's) attention all the time, on demand, or none at all... and that's not really fair... but I feelike I've had friends like that before, that wanting was mutual... now...? now I worry, are you ok!? probably... just busy... living... you know... like a normal functional adult would be... I am thankful for my lover, he is certainly that kind of friend and I'm so glad. I feelike I can cling and bug as much as I want and get the desired results :P but that's what heartmates are for ;)
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what's it to you?
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