she_was_three_years_old emotional scar she remembers she was told it was just a game and she liked games but she did not like this one it was a painful confusion the weight of him she wanted to get away but she could not he would not let her go it was something she could not forget no matter how hard she tried to erase it this memory would always linger oh other times would come to haunt her but it was this, the first time she wanted most not to remember she wanted to forget herself she wanted a new innocence something she could hold onto something she could give away it was why she looked to saints for their forgiveness, their empathy it was why she had never made love and why at night she was always alone 041109 ... slothisily things like this make me so so angry but there is nothing i can do and i want to fix it for you but i can't and that makes me sad, it makes me sad that you have to deal with this all the time every minute every day forever and i want to cry, i want it to be better, i hope you can be alright i love you and i don't even know you but i know you in a strange way deep in my heart and i feel for you. 041109 ... . thankyou 041109 ... . i appreciate your words) 041109 what's it to you? who go blather from